上来纪念一下连续第5年过的单身节

嗯。。。继续加班。。。

完毕

 

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有必要来记录一下这天晚上的惊险遭遇

和姐妹们约了晚上听Jazz，于是下班以后先找地方吃饭

那时候已经过了七点半，天完全黑了，而且起了风，有点冷

我一边和S打电话一边疾步走，路过恒隆的时候

不知道哪里来的直觉我就鬼使神差地往我的右边看了看（事实证明再晚一秒都迟了）

居然发现有一只手在我的包里！！！

 

然后我就傻了

一阵寒意从脊柱流过

旁边那个人也傻了，迅速把手抽回以后也呆了一两秒

我们四目相对了一下

刹那间宇宙一片寂静。。。

然后我本能地打破沉默：你干吗？！

话一出口我就后悔了，这还需要问么。。。

 

他依旧豪无表情，似乎耸了耸肩，不屑于理会我愚蠢的问题

转身走了，就这样慢悠悠一步一步地地踱走了！！！

靠。。。人赃俱获哎。。。有点职业道德好不好

现在的贼连短跑都懒得练么

至少也要做个逃跑的样子出来啊

 

哎。。。世风日下啊世风日下。。。

 

 

i've been asking myself a question lately, to which i'm having a hard time finding an answer

 

 

 

certainly we are not expecting the exact same amount of devotion in a relationship, not anymore

in this ever-changing, pretending society where everyone seems to have trust issues

where each and everyone of us suffers from this enormous insecurity at times

where having such a loving and careing relationship becomes too much to ask that it has almost turned into a urban myth

we are made to believe that one of the two has to be more committed

either he loves you more or the other way around

they say in the best of relationships, the two parties involved share the roles of giver and taker evenly

to sum up, that is, they compromise

 

 

you see, most of the time the situation is so ambiguous that it has become a delicate battle

we have to be careful not to show too much affaction to scare him/her away

or not enough attention that makes him/her not seeing any future

as much as i hate this, i have to concede that the whole dating maneuver thing plays a critical role here

 

 

i've always considered myself as a giver

i try my very best to make him happy, sometimes too nice to point out the thing that pisses me off

even to those i don't really care

i acted like an angry child who keeps everything to herself, carrying a growing discontent within

and when some problem finally reveals itself, it's often fatal, leaving no room to amend

that's why i feel very relieved instead of guilty coz i'm not the one to blame

after all, i've done everything within my ablity to make it work

 

 

HOWEVER

it was until recently i realized i was so blind that i continue to make the same mistakes with the same types of people

i like to think myself as a giver simply because i lack the courage to admit that i'm no longer self-sufficent

so unwillingly to admit that i'm mentally attached to others that i rather keep giving

pretending he's the one who needs me more

 

 

Giving seems counter intuitive, but it works, at least for me

it's some kind of self-protection procedure

you may consider the taker as more self-centered, overprotected and dominant

yet as i am now genuinely reflect upon my behavior with others, i discover otherwise

How we treat others is directly linked to who we attract

we givers, do-ers, and generally ask-nothing-in-return-ers, are actually asking for the most

 

 

the truth is, if you are lucky enough to date an experienced giver who's willing to take the wheel

and is not afraid to admit how afraid he is to get serious, to be committed, to take on responsibilities

then congratulations!

you just sign up for a lifelong joyful journey